Love and Atitude
Is a respectful love has become something rare nowadays?
I am a girl, a 21-year-old virgin who has never done any direct sexual intercourse with any guy.
I was having a problem with my self-esteem, as a result of being bullied for years.
Rejection and mocks are not strangers to me.
But this year... I have come to this level.
The phase when I want a man on my side to get my back.
Basically just to tell me that everything is okay and to support me for anything that I'm going through.
I have to admit that this is getting harder by days cause I am completing my research for the undergraduate thesis. This has never been easy.
No matter how strong I am, I'm just in a phase where I miss being loved and to love.
Anyways, having no idea where to start because my surrounding is not that compatible to look for a date, I decided to go online.
There I met some various type of guys.
But most of them are the same - horny-.
From which I heard from a guy directly, they are trying to cope their boner problem.
They need some sort of trigger to express their feeling.
When they didn't succeed in coping it by themselves, they go online to get some chicks to help them.
In this world full of technology... I am just wondering where and how I can get a pure love.
A gentleman who does not give pressure about their sexual intercourse.
Someone sincere to know me for who I am, not for what I can give to them to please their horniness.
To be honest, those people with their animal sexual sense are making me feel like I am just a sexual thing for them.
Like I was meant there to please them with their wild sexual imagination.
I have received so many dick pics.
Maybe my experience is not as many as those women who are older than me, or those girls who lost their virginity already. I am proud of them all...
But my big question here is... where can I get a sincere love?
Since when it become so fictional?
Or it does not exist anymore?
I hope there will be somebody who proofs me that my thought about this mistaken love is wrong.
I am a girl, a 21-year-old virgin who has never done any direct sexual intercourse with any guy.
I was having a problem with my self-esteem, as a result of being bullied for years.
Rejection and mocks are not strangers to me.
But this year... I have come to this level.
The phase when I want a man on my side to get my back.
Basically just to tell me that everything is okay and to support me for anything that I'm going through.
I have to admit that this is getting harder by days cause I am completing my research for the undergraduate thesis. This has never been easy.
No matter how strong I am, I'm just in a phase where I miss being loved and to love.
Anyways, having no idea where to start because my surrounding is not that compatible to look for a date, I decided to go online.
There I met some various type of guys.
But most of them are the same - horny-.
From which I heard from a guy directly, they are trying to cope their boner problem.
They need some sort of trigger to express their feeling.
When they didn't succeed in coping it by themselves, they go online to get some chicks to help them.
In this world full of technology... I am just wondering where and how I can get a pure love.
A gentleman who does not give pressure about their sexual intercourse.
Someone sincere to know me for who I am, not for what I can give to them to please their horniness.
To be honest, those people with their animal sexual sense are making me feel like I am just a sexual thing for them.
Like I was meant there to please them with their wild sexual imagination.
I have received so many dick pics.
Maybe my experience is not as many as those women who are older than me, or those girls who lost their virginity already. I am proud of them all...
But my big question here is... where can I get a sincere love?
Since when it become so fictional?
Or it does not exist anymore?
I hope there will be somebody who proofs me that my thought about this mistaken love is wrong.
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